Doing the right thing is really easy most of the time. The choice is clear and the decision is simple. Sometimes, though, doing the right thing will break your heart. It will shatter you into a million pieces and you won't be able to do anything but accept what's coming. The right choice will sit like a stone in the back of your throat, threatening at every word to sink to your stomach and drop you to your knees. You'll choke back your words and try to keep yourself from breaking down, knowing you still have to act on one of the most difficult truths you've ever had to accept.
You'll contemplate going the other way and ignoring everything you know to be true. You'll tell yourself it doesn't matter that it's the right thing - it's not the easy thing. You'll struggle with that knot growing in your stomach, and then you'll do it. You'll jump off the cliff and grab that lump in your throat by the balls. You'll snatch it out and find your words and say all the truths you know. There won't be any convincing necessary - the truth is undeniable. What won't happen, though, is you feeling instant relief. You won't immediately feel better and want to move on with your day. You won't be able to hide from the pain you feel. You won't be able to take your words back, and you won't be able to undo what happened.
At that point, my friends, is where you find your true strength. More often than not people struggle with the consequences of doing the right thing so they keep doing the wrong thing. They think it's easier to just pretend nothing is wrong and keep moving. Well I'll tell you that they're wrong. They have no idea how strong they are because they've never taken the opportunity to feel pain in the effort to grow. Do you remember having those random pains in your legs and joints when you were younger? Your mother probably called them "growing pains". Well your heart is like that too. There are going to come times where you have to hurt in order to become a better version of yourself. You have to stretch and exercise your heart and your feelings to know that when something difficult arises, you can deal with it head-first and come out stronger, better. Every time you choose the right thing, even, and especially, when the right thing is the hard thing, you gain new strength. You find new power within yourself to overcome.
Standing up for what you know is right makes you a force to be reckoned with. Don't be afraid to set boundaries and draw those lines deep in the sand. Don't be afraid to say the hard things. Don't be afraid to stand up for your happiness and your karma. Don't be afraid to cry when you're hurting. Don't be afraid to ask for help.
Don't be afraid to say "this isn't working".
Don't be afraid to break your own heart.
Don't be afraid of truth.
~until next time
Working a full time job, raising two daughters, attempting to have a social life, trying to make my family proud, and trying to make myself proud are things I do every day. I'm now beginning my journey of giving. This is step one.