You are allowed to feel how you feel. You are allowed to want to do things with some people and exclude others. You are allowed to choose what you want to do with your body. You must, though, be honest about it. You must be truthful about how you feel. You need to tell people what you want and act accordingly, even if it may temporarily hurt someone's feelings. If they are mature, they will appreciate your honesty more than they are hurt by wanting something from you that you are unable or unwilling to give.
Life just works that way. You might have a friend you don't really want to hang out with at a certain time. You might meet a new guy (or girl) that you like so far but you're not willing to swap spit just yet. You might fall in love with the wrong person and have to hold back all of your silliness and affection because you don't want to have unrealistic expectations of where it's going. You might have a father you don't really speak to... it's all the same. We're all allowed to set our boundaries. We're all allowed to feel what we feel. We just have to be willing to deal with the feelings and reactions of others based on what we do.
It's tricky, I know, but we all have choices. Choose wisely.
~until next time
Working a full time job, raising two daughters, attempting to have a social life, trying to make my family proud, and trying to make myself proud are things I do every day. I'm now beginning my journey of giving. This is step one.