There's a drink in my hand........ well, next to me, but it was in my hand a moment ago and it will be again in a moment from now. This is not my first drink that I now have sitting next to me. Honestly, it's not even my second; and needless to say, I'm feeling a bit more HONEST than usual.
I want you to know that I understand you feel you're reading excerpts from the life of a complete stranger, but I do want you to know me. There are things about my life - both current and past - that I think are important for you to learn so you can take full advantage of my words and message. There are things that are necessary for you to truly take this journey with me. There are realizations about myself that I need to share with you in order for you to hear me and know I'm not just talking because I have an audience.
Let me tell you a bit of truth: EVERYTHING I put on this website is from personal experience. If I seem vague about the details of what caused me to say what I said, it's most definitely because I'm respecting the privacy of others. I mean, come on, I told you about feeling like a crack-head because I cracked a filling in my tooth. So here you go:
My father has been a distant part of my life for pretty much all of my life, although I believe he has a good heart and good intentions most of the time. My mother is the best of the best that I could ever wish for. I am the oldest of my siblings, only one of whom I'm truly close with. The others I love DEARLY, there are just some realities we deal with: one has passed on in a way I wouldn't wish on an enemy, one was adopted and I've only ever seen him once about 12 years ago, and the other is doing fine with the cutest children but we just don't reach out all the time. I have two daughters who can have the skin off my back if they needed it. I have few friends. I had a rough childhood. I have family members I refuse to have a relationship with... and I'm in love with a man I'm not in a relationship with.
Here's my point: I'm a normal person with a past, present, and future, and everything I share with you is because I want you to grow with me and be yourself. I want you to be a part of my life, and I want to be a part of yours. So feel free - encouraged, even - to share your stories with me. Let's build a relationship through just being our authentic selves and see what happens. Let's be open and honest with ourselves when we're in this shared space. Let's be honest with ourselves always.
Visit JustBeYou's "Share Your Story" page and share your life and feelings with me.
~until next time
Working a full time job, raising two daughters, attempting to have a social life, trying to make my family proud, and trying to make myself proud are things I do every day. I'm now beginning my journey of giving. This is step one.